Escrevivências de corpos racializados com a assistência médica em Careiro/AM e Manaus/AM

Abstract

This dissertation presents my theoretical-methodological efforts when writing about an experience that is radically close and permeated by the pain of absence: mourning. A writing located in my daily life, combined with decolonial and intersectional reflections about black and racialized women. I used escrevivência as a writing practice for us, black and racialized women, to describe how we experience medical assistance in the Amazonian municipalities of Careiro and Manaus. I mobilized evocative autoethnography as a means to understand myself in the field. Thus, this dissertation is a bricolage of theoretical and methodological operators: Escrevivência (Evaristo, 2005; 2020); autoethnography (Anderson and Glass-Coffin, 2013; Ellis et al, 2010; Adams et al., 2017; Versiani, 2005); evocative autoethnography (Bochner and Ellis, 2016); and, finally, the perception of being affected/crossed by my vulnerabilities as a researcher/anthropologist: heartbroken anthropology (Behar, 1996). In my argumentative bases I also follow the theoretical contributions of situated knowledge and localized knowledge (Haraway, 1995); intersectionality (Collins, 2022); about black and racialized women (hooks, 1981; Gonzales, 1984; Vergés, 2017); and black feminist academic writing (hooks, 2017; 2020; Kilomba, 2010; 2016). Autoethnography is accompanied by drawings, poems, thoughts noted in the personal diary and in the field notebook that supported me during writing, but not only. I follow some aspects discussed by Ellis (2015), such as personal experience in the field, which in writing are in the foreground. I present reflective aspects and my emotionalities along with the senses; I bring information and stories from unique lives, but which refer to a social problem that affects the bodies of black and racialized Amazonian women in their experiences with medical assistance from the Unified Health System in Amazonas. Critical notes on how racism built the myth of more resistant black bodies and, finally, I turn to black intellectuals to establish connections with the reality presented by me in my comings and goings from the District of Purupuru (in Careiro) to Manaus along with my peers.